Dear Diary

Now that TTCing has taken over my entire life, my diary has taken on a whole new meaning.  I can entertain myself for hours with nothing but my A5 week to a page Collin’s diary (as proved during a very quiet day at work today).  I use the year-planner page at the front to track my cycle lengths, periods and inseminations.  Then on each day I write in the cycle day number and where applicable the days post ovulation number.  Then the fun starts.  I count until my BFP is due.  Using my 2009 diary, I count until the due date.  I count until the 12, 16 and 20 week milestones. I then canvas fallback plans and count to when the next insem will be if we don’t get a BFP this time.  I review previous dates, analyse patterns in my cycles, calculate the days of the week and the conflicting events that may happen with our next insem or BFP news.  It’s like a portable fertility friend but far less technical and more optimistic.  Thankfully I already have a policy of only writing in pencil in my diary, because with all this optimistic markings in my diary, there’s usually some erasing to be done.

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