Category Archive
The following is a list of all entries from the 2WW category.
The Test
1. We went shopping for pregnancy tests last night. We went to three stores, deliberating between the various designs and styles. We settled on a three pack of the first response.
2. We had planned to test this morning at 13DPO and CD32. A day before my period is due. We’ve been pretty restrained not testing prior. The clinic blood test is on Tuesday.
3. I woke at 5am and desparately needed to pee. Lo woke up and we deliberated about the instructions on ‘first morning urine’, we decided to test then, bleary eyed in the bathroom.
4. It was definitely one line. And one line only.
5. There was a mix of incredulity, disappointment and some relief. This cycle has been really tough. And I’d like another shot at staying calm and welcoming to our little baby, rather than the difficulties we’ve had these past few weeks. I felt sad that if we were pregnant, the first few days of being pregnant had me in a bawling and paranoid state. While of course we would have been thrilled to be pregnant and to be successful on the first go, it also would’ve felt quite soon from our perspective. We’ve been gearing ourselves up for it to take a few months.
6. We’re going to spend today’s road trip discussing how we approach the next cycle. There will be another, but I want to reflect on the lessons learnt from this one.
7. Lo is packing up around me, I am drying my hair with one hand, and writing this with the other. We’ve packed the other two pregnancy tests in case my period doesn’t show. Lo hasn’t given up hope yet. And I am about to google the stats regarding 13 DPO etc to see whether it’s possible we could still be pregnant.
8. Alas. Writing this, I feel sad.
Known donors, bad fences and the gayby boom
1. I’m starting to feel really excited about the prospect of possibly being pregnant, but not feeling very many ’symptoms.’ So, this is what the 2WW is like, huh? Plenty of googling, plenty of obsessing, and plenty of time spent buried in my diary calculating days. I am very much over the paranoia and really hope this is it.
2. In exciting and unexpected news, one of our known donors, KDY, who’s 60 million count sperm we used on Saturday, has emailed to say that he is coming back for a few months for a work assignment, as of next week. The other donor, KDX, will remain away but will likely come back for visits. After the initial excitement about seeing him, it took Lo and I a few moments to register that he would be here in person for a few MONTHS. Meaning that we have the possibility of doing it the good ole’ fashioned turkey baster way (if he agrees). Funny how things work out. So we’re keeping this in our thinking if a future cycle is required.
3. Wherever Lo and I live, we seem to find ourselves with homophobic neighbours of one variety or another. We love our current house, but are sad that relations with our neighbours are laced with a silent homophobia. Tonight, they cornered Lo and got her to agree to cutting down a lovely flowering hedge that divides our two properties. When I asked Lo why she acquiesced so quickly to their demands despite really liking the hedge and the role it plays screening out their house, she said ” I wanted to please the heterosexuals.” It’s true. We may be gay, but if we agree to your demands will you like us better?
4. Our lesbian GP just had a baby. So did a huge number of lesbians in this city. The gayby boom is in full swing. A friend of mine is newly dating a 40something single lesbian mama. So now she’s suddenly keyed in to the lesbian parent community. She’d never met a lesbian parent before, but now she exists entirely in the lesbian parents section of the community. It’s a smallish town, so there’s all these strange links between donors and lesbian parents. i.e. you find out a male colleague has had a donor-child, and you find out some lesbians you know have just had a baby. And then you put two and two together. I like that about this place.
